"Chaucer, Rabeleis, BALZAC!"

 “Our greatest fears lie in anticipation.”  - Honore de Balzac

I feel poised at the brink of … something. What that something is, I don’t know, but I can’t shake the feeling that everything is about to change.

I’ve written much about change — how I don’t like it, how I’m learning to accept it, how it’s simply part of life — and yet in the face of the unknown, all my brave and pithy words seem hollow.

Despite the roots I’ve been carefully nurturing for the past four years, I know everything is transitory. It’s the nature of ministry; it’s the nature of the life the Captain and I lead.

And unfortunately, uncertainty is part and parcel of this life, too. Every year we wait with bated breath and hands clasped in prayer to see if we’ll be able to continue where we are. It’s hard to acknowledge that your future, seemingly so stable, can be changed in the course of a meeting.  

But what I’m learning from all this is to trust God more completely. I believe He has a plan for us; He has provided for us in the past and I know He will continue to do so in the future.

For those of you who know our situation, I don’t mean to be intentionally vague. It’s not intended to be a veiled announcement of any sort. It’s just, well, sometimes there’s a lot that goes on behind a smile. 

(PS — Kudos to you if you know which Broadway musical I'm referencing in the title.)